Still Shaken Up…
It was just like any other night.
I was driving home from The Fiance’s house after the Warrior’s game last Thursday. It was pretty late, around 10:30 pm. We don’t live too far from each other, the drive is only about 10 minutes. I’ve driven this way probably 3-4 times a week at least. Nothing was out of the ordinary.
As I was driving through an intersection, I saw a car coming towards me from my left side incredibly fast. I stomped on the brakes as hard as I could and as the car passed me, I could feel the air from their momentum rock my own car. You can say it was a pretty close call.
I sat there in the middle of the intersection completely frozen. I looked up to make sure and yes – I did have a green light. It was my right of way.
I was shaken up to say the least
Thankfully, I wasn’t hit. But it was pretty damn close.
As I continued my drive home, a million thoughts ran through my head.
I did everything right…
As I was frozen shortly after, I made sure to look up and ensure that I really did have a green light. I did! I proceeded to double check everything else. It was pretty dark outside. Were my lights on? Yes. Did I signal? No, I wasn’t even turning, no need to signal. Was I speeding, too? No, I clearly remember checking my speed right before crossing that intersection.
But I guess that doesn’t matter…
This was the scariest thought for me, to be honest. You can do everything right and things can still turn out the way you don’t want them to. You can be a great driver – following the speed limit, going ahead when the light is green, signalling when needed. But when someone on the road is not being a great driver, it doesn’t really matter.
Then I started thinking that this can apply to other things as well. You can do all the right things when it comes to your career, your finances, your health. But someone else, or even just life in general, decides to ruin things.
Didn’t that driver see that s/he had a red light?
At first, my thoughts about the other driver were not kind to say the least. The words “idiot” and “moron” were used heavily in the minutes following the scare. I mean, a bright red light is pretty damn difficult to miss!
I’ve come to the conclusion that the other driver was either distracted or was incredibly bored. The thought came up that maybe there was a pregnant lady in the car that was giving birth right that second – but still! I understand the urgency but I do think that the driver should still be careful when there are others in the car.
Either way, I’m speculating. It doesn’t matter. No one’s perfect and I need to stop focusing on that other person. It’s not productive.
What if I really got hit?
Ultimately, I don’t know. I don’t know how bad it would have been, physically and monetarily. I immediately thought to what I have set up. I have an emergency fund that could help cover some costs. I also have some great health insurance offered by my employer.
Then I thought about everyone else. I don’t have kids yet and I’m not married yet, either. But I am in charge of all the house bills, making sure they get paid on time and all that. What would my mom, auntie, and brother do if something happened to me? I would imagine it would be incredibly stressful to deal with me being in the hospital on top of trying to figure out the house bills.
With that being said, I’m thinking of writing up a list of all of my/our bills along with due dates and amounts. I recently read this post about creating an emergency list for your family from Michelle over at Making Sense of Cents, before the incident. After the incident, the post came to mind all over again. I really need to set this up for my family.
Thank God I wasn’t hit
Most importantly, I’m grateful. I’m thankful that this didn’t turn out wrongly. I truly believe God allows certain things to happen to you to wake us up and reflect on our current life. Are we doing everything right? Are we on the right path? Have we lived the way we wanted to?
I’m still shaken up. But now I’m more motivated to actually do something. I’ve been complacent lately and I’ve chosen perfect inaction over imperfect action. I’m going to work on getting my sh*t together and after that, I’ll be working a lot more on my happiness and life in general.
Sorry this was kind of scattered. Just felt like sharing.